We love you and miss you dearly Josh xox..

Each day in our memories, you will still laugh and love, you will still sing and play guitar, you will still hug and kiss us with your hellos and goodbyes.

You will forever be in our lives, you will forever be a son, a brother, a nephew, a cousin, and friend.

 We miss your shining face. We think of this day and wonder why? We might cry from missing you or smile from memories of you -but at the end of this day, we are one day closer to you....

People keep saying that time will heal everything....

Time isn't healing anything, it's just teaching us how to live each day dealing with the pain of missing you...

The first thing I will do

Dancing Ladybug
Delicate and free
Carry this prayer to
The highest tree
A prayer of love
So that my son always knows
How much I love him and
Miss him below.

Now when it rains, it pours....

When It Rains

Kid Rock

Like a deer in the headlights, I stood frozen in my tracks 
And the weight of the news, It nearly broke my back 
It was late September, and I remember oh so well 
I put a rose in the bible and placed it on my shelf 

Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now the things I never knew before 
Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now the things I never knew before 

Back then when we were 17 
Time was on our side 
Holes in our jeans and a pocket full of dreams 
The future was Friday night 
And we would hangout down by the river bend 
Singing our favorite songs 
Laughing and drinking, smoking and smiling 
Now those days are gone 

Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now the things I never knew before 
Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now the things I know for shore 

Like a deer in the headlights, I stood frozen in my tracks 
And the weight of you not here nearly broke my back 
And the tears they fell like a monsoon 
Underneath the cold fall moon 
Somehow God put his hands on your shoulders 
Way too, way too soon 

Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now the things I never knew before 
Now when it rains, it pours 
Wish I didn't know now 
No I didn't know now 
What I knew before

Signs of love xox

As I sit safe in Heaven and watch you everyday, I try and let you know with signs that I never went away! I hear you when you're laughing, and watch you as you sleep. I even place my arms around you, to calm you as you weep. I see you wish the days away, begging to have me home. So I try to send you signs, to let you know you're are not alone. Don't feel guilty enjoying life the very best you can. Heaven is truly beautiful just you wait and see. So live your life, laugh again. Enjoy yourself, be free. Then I'll know with every breath you take, you'll be taking one for me.